Standing on the Outside, Looking in

I was a 'player'. I meant something. I was a mover and a shaker. People looked up to me. My opinion mattered. I was revered.

But I do not 'play' anymore. My past actions do not matter anymore. Perhaps I was never. Perhaps I never moved nor shaked. Perhaps my opnion never mattered. Perhaps I only thought I mattered.

When I was in the nucleus, I 'thought' I was IN. But perhaps I never was. Now I am STANDING ON THE OUTSIDE, LOOKING IN, I can see the whole big picture. I can see the flaws as clear as it can be. And I also see that I WAS NEVER IN.